Hello Lovelies! I know that I usually post on Monday, but I didn’t really have anything…
Last week I was supposed to take a series of tests and do my last interview before getting that job. Everything was looking good, and then they took my blood pressure… the nurse asked if I was stressed in any way. I know I looked at her with attitude, and she kind of giggled. No…I”m not stressed. I”m unemployed, have been for a bit, husband is now looking for work…other things, random free-floating anxiety… No, I’m fine. Though last year when I went to the doc to get my new prescription for birth control, they mentioned my blood pressure was high, and they made me lie there for 15 minutes in the dark and then take it again, before leaving with meds… And my mother was hypertensive…both of these things I told the nurse. BUT I hadn’t had coffee that morning so it should be better. She asked me to lie down in the dark and think relaxing thoughts (it was 148/90 the first time). To START the test, a person’s blood pressure has to be below 130/80, sitting up.
So I laid there, in the dark, trying to think relaxing thoughts, which is completely not something I do well. I just started trying to focus on slowing my pulse, which was racing, and making my exhalations longer than my inhalations. The nurse came back quietly, and asked me to sit up slowly, which made me feel worse than I had been, but I did it, and it was lower, 144/83. Still not good enough to take the test, but she thought if I got into the surroundings I needed to test in, maybe something would be ok…AND I had to take the test after being upright a bit. So we walked into the other room, and she told me just to relax and people watch, and just try to do some deep breathing… just her telling me to relax was stressing me out by now. About 15 minutes later, the nurse came back, and gave me that smile that is supposed to be reassuring, and said “I hope you had relaxing thoughts!” Apparently I didn’t. My blood pressure was 153/93. They couldn’t test me. I did have to go back 2 days later to get my Tb test read, so I could try again.
I drove myself home, determined to hold it together, and I did. I cried walking into the house, but I was good while driving. Told my husband the story, while looking up “lower blood pressure” on the interwebs. I found all the things I could eat, and wrote down a small list of stuff to get, and decided I was gonna do it the more natural way… I chewed on garlic cloves, drank cranberry juice, ate garlicky, cayenne peppery food, and took magnesium, calcium, and hawthorn berry. And had no caffeine. And tried to think relaxing thoughts. HA!
Friday morning rolls around, I tried to get a good night’s sleep, and at some point decided that knowing that I was unhealthy was more important than anything else… I got to the office and was seen pretty quickly. I”m negative for Tb, yay. Then they took my blood pressure, 148/89. This time the nurse said “I’m going to give you one more chance, I’ll let you lie here in the dark for a few minutes and see if you can just calm a bit. She was gone for 20 minutes this time, she thought I needed a few extra minutes.. What I’d needed were hours…it went up to 153/90. The nurse said she’d have to send in the results for the test, and maybe my job would let me get my blood pressure taken care of, and try again.
When I got home, I instantly called the last doctor I saw when I had insurance, he was our doctor for a few years, and knew our history. Luckily the office visits weren’t as much as I’d thought, and got an appointment for Tuesday, and emailed the company of the job I was trying to get, to find out what I could do. It was Friday afternoon, so I’d be waiting for a bit… I kept my caffeine intake down, tried to go for walks and not stress. The weekend was pretty uneventful, and so was Monday, no call from the company, but Mondays can be busy. Tuesday rolls around, and I go see Dr Zheng. I got in quickly, they took my blood pressure and I got into a room to talk to the doc pretty quickly. I like him, he straight talks me and is just nice. My bp was 148/86, which wasn’t too high, but my heart rate was pretty elevated, and I was just resting, so a bit troubling. Now I”m on Atenolol, and I go back for a check up in a month. THEN as I was leaving the doc’s office, the company called. They need someone to start NOW, not hopefully in a few weeks, AND since I had such a high bp without meds, they don’t want to chance me having that job, where I might have to be maneuvering an adult larger than myself, if not larger, and maybe my meds were off a bit… they’re covering themselves, but I understand, and would definitely not be ready to push myself so very quickly. I was also told that when I got my health in order, there are other positions with the company that if they ever come up I could apply for.
So I’ve taken my first med, my heart rate is noticeably slower, and it’s not pounding. It will be cool not to have my ears pounding when I go to bed tonight. I”m supposed to give it a couple days before driving by myself, but that’s ok.
So I’m still working on my clay golem, I”ll put up a bunch of pictures for my next blog post. I”m sure this was the most boring post, but it’s been on my mind non-stop for a week now, so it’s nice to have a bit of resolution, even though not what I’d hoped for. But, it’s not all that bad, AND I’ll be healthier… which is cool because I gotta KEEP IT CREEPY! (and so do you!)